Tick Tock

Trader Joe's Mango Sorbet. If you can try it, buy it. My folks and I love the flavor. Not as good as the mangoes we ate during my visit abroad but damn fine. Fruity, sweet with a tart finish and melty as you swallow it...yummmmm.

Not much to say today. Spent the day opening boxes filled with my card collection. I've been collecting greeting cards since the 80's. Haven't mailed them, simply enjoy taking them out of their boxes and reading. I truly mourn the loss of the mailed letter or card. The Internet is so much more convenient, true, but much more impersonal. I love the excitement of seeing an envelope with my name (as long as it's not a bill), realizing which friend sent it (usually Missy K.) and opening it. The thought the other person put into buying the card, writing a little note, then mailing the card/letter itself - well, it makes me feel so special. Now we have Internet cards; you shop, you fill in the little box and presto! the program writes out your note and sends it off. Big woo. Give me a mailed letter or card any day.

Watched Moulin Rouge. While I don't really like Nicole Kidman, I love this movie.

Okay, so there you have it. A brief summary of my day. Exciting, wasn't it?

Red and Gray

I spent the afternoon shopping online for stuff. Patio furniture, corner TV unit, ottomans, pictures, mirrors...little things to finish up my house. I suppose you could say I was successful in purchasing a few things but my credit card certainly was screaming for it to all stop.

Having my own home is something I never thought I would do - the implied and real responsibility is very scary for someone like me. Commitment is not something I do with any measured success. I tend to get bored and when that happens I fall off the track. Since my accident I'm more aware of this bad habit and I've made some progress with the "stick to itness"...and some days it ain't any fun.

I've had a few relationships that have lasted the test of time: Missys K., R., P., and S. to name a few. It didn't ever feel like I was making an effort to stay in the relationship. Now why is it that with the men in my life, I've always had problems? Either the drama is there or I make it happen. Because I'm bored. Because I find them irritating. Sigh. There is no pleasing me I suppose.

From the time I was 13 through about 40 years old, I read romance books obsessively. After my accident, I dropped the urge to read about romance. It seemed like such a waste of time. In real life, it doesn't always work out, you know?

It's been a cloudy day here in "sunny" Southern CA. Perhaps that's why I feel a bit blah. Usually I relish days like this - sharp, cool breezes, gray skies, that little cold snap in the air when you take a deep breath - today, instead of invigorating me, it made me want to climb back into bed and pull the covers up. So I did. As Scarlett said, "Tomorrow is another day!"

Jester Me Not

April Fool's Day. Did I get any pranks pulled on me? No, thank goodness. I stayed in bed until 11am (sounds good but I didn't fall asleep until 6am so, no, it wasn't a sleep-in), didn't change out of my pajamas until 3pm, and to top it all off, I didn't shower today. I didn't read a book. I didn't watch TV. I didn't go outside and I didn't enjoy my garden. I did spend most of the day on the computer, wasting the day away.

Perhaps I am the April Fool.